Mummy what did I do wrong ?

Earlier on today i was thinking of Mia - daisy's best friend who passed away ! I was angry about her being gone today , so to releave the pain i wrote a poem , and i thought i would share it with you here ! It is written as if it is mia speaking ., enjoy ...

Mummy what did i do wrong ?

Why mummy why ?

Why did the angels choose me,

I wish that my life was simple again,

Pain and cancer free.

I fight every day , without a minutes rest,

please tell me mummy why ?

Why do the angels hate me , when you say i am the best ?

I am in great pain , Unimaginable pain,

I cry every day,

I beg for forgiveness , what did I do wrong?

I wish that this torture would just end,

It feels like a mind game,

And I constantly have to be strong,

I am a good little girl , so ,

Mummy please make my pain stop !

Mummy why do they hate me ,

When you say my heart is pure gold?

My life is like a very thin frayed piece of thread,

Hanging there , Just waiting to snap,

This is something we all dread,

Mummy why me ,

What did i do wrong , what did i do to upset them ,

Mummy why do the angels hate me ?

Why did they humiliate me and make me bald?

I knew i would die ,

I was just waiting around,

And then it came,

That day in August when i became very sick,

The doctors said that they had no more treatments,

No more magic medicine ,

Nothing that would heal me and make me better again.

My mummy cried,

I tried to be strong,

I am only a small child,

Living through what seems like hell.

I did not fear death but ,

I knew that I would have to leave behind,

A life that was overspilling with love,

And all those people that meant the whole world to me,

But that i would soon spread my wings,

and fly just like a dove !

When I entered the gates of heaven,

It was only then that I realised,

That the angels dont hate me,

They love me so,

So much that they wanted me ,

To be with them right then.

They wanted a star,

That would make heaven bright,

One that would make heaven a beautiful place to be,

And this is why they choose me,

I am that star,

An angel with wings.

I watch over my mummy,

Who grieve's for me each night and day,

I do not like it and I have to turn away,

My little sister Gracie is growing up so fast,

I try to protect her from all harm and the Dreadfull past.

I try to help my beautiful Mummy,

The one I love so much,

By sending messages ,

Like the breeze in the wind,

Reminding her that I'm just a short breath away.

My name is Mia,

I am only three,

On the 31st of August,

The angels called for me.

By Amber Furniss

For Justine-Mia's mummy

In loving memory of our little shining star - Forever three - Taken from Neuroblastoma Stage 4

Find your wings Mia ....

Forever three

Forever free

Forever in our hearts ... Fly high Mia xxx

Mia and Gracie

Justine - Mia's mummy

Mia - Before diagnosis

Mia as a butterfly Mia in JR hospital