Race For Life x

Running in celebration of my sister Daisy and in memory of Mia x

It's time again for race for life! I will be running 5K on ... to say thank you for saving my very brave sister Daisy and in loving memory of a beautiful little girl - Mia, whose life was cut far too short x

My little sister Daisy was diagnosed with Acute Lymphoblastic Leukaemia on the 29th of November 2006. It was a heart-wrenching moment that changed mine and my family’s lives forever. However it was a massive joy to know that the Treatments available for ALL meant that her odds of survival were very high - without Cancer Research UK and the work they do to find better treatments and the all important cure, I believe the ending to Daisy's Leukaemia story could have been drastically different. I am running to say a massive thank you to them, they helped to give my sister back her life. Thanks to cancer research UK Daisy is now a perfectly normal, healthy and happy child - to see a once seriously ill child smile and laugh is a very beautiful thing, especially when that child means the world to you! X

I am also extremely proud to be running in memory of a very special little girl who we met whilst in the hospital. Mia Ashmore lost her battle to Neuroblastoma, a very aggressive form of childhood cancer on the 31st of August 2007. In an effort to honour Mia's memory, and to share her spirit with others, I am running for Cancer Research UK to help put an end to Cancer so no-one else has to suffer.
Running is a small way in which I can keep Mia's spirit alive. I want to help, I need to help, in any way I can to keep Mia's name resounding in the universe. When someone you care about passes away, their name, their spirit, their gifts become so very fragile, and it becomes so very essential to keep these pieces of them alive and to share them with others—because they themselves no longer can. Simply because Mia is no longer here does not mean that her legacy should not continue to inspire others. Contributing to this incredible organization is one way in which I can achieve this. Mia deserves to be remembered. And the world deserves to share in her spirit.

Cancer Research UK is the world's leading charity dedicated to beating cancer through research. Their groundbreaking work has saved millions of lives including my sisters, but together we still have a long way to go. The outstanding research they do is entirely funded by the public, 30 years ago only 30% of children survived cancer, today 70% survive, phenomenal! However there's still a long way to go, 1 child lost to cancer is 1 too many! Please join me in the fight to help end cancer by sponsoring me today at www.justgiving.com/ambersrun and together we WILL beat cancer.

oh what joy !!

It gives me great pleasure and honour to announce ........





Mia is finally coming home again !! - yes thats right !



some of mia's ashes were taken to america...




where this little angel was made into a ...

Diamond ! - she will soon be being taken

back home to justine and gracie as the little

diamond she always was in her short life with us here ! - WOW - we love and miss you terribly sweet , sweet little Mia Moo xxxxx

Mia moo we miss u !!

Mia when my blue skiesturn a darken shade of grey
I close my eyes and see you ,
then there's sunshine in my day
Your beautiful smile is rooted in my memory and in my heart
I could lose everything tomorrow but that, from me will never part
I know you are with me every daysending me signs that you are near
And at night, when I lay to sweetdreams song is what I hear
Your friend jade is now with you mia give her a hug and kiss from me
I know you're having fun in Heaven,Angel,
but how I miss you sitting on my knee
Until that day I can see you smile and hold you in my arms once more
The memories of you my little one give me hope, my heart's restored
Please continue smiling from Heaven sending your sunshine down each day
And Mia at night before I sleep
"I love you, Godspeed", is what I pray!



Be4 my sister had cancer!


Before my sister had cancer -
I never knew the importancy of life
or understood lab values I
didn't worry about whether
or not a cold could be fatal.
I never thought about relapse
or bone marrow transplants


Before my sister had cancer -
I never had to watch my mum
comfort her throwing up so
violently for so long
Or worry about mouth sores,
skin integraty or hearing loss

Before my sister had cancer -
I never had to think about
the doctors sedating her so
that they could do tests
I never imagined my sister
having a hickman line through
her little chest
Or that mum would have to
care for these and never let
them get wet

Before my sister had cancer -
I never felt my heart would
break into a million pieces
when noone could stop her hurt
I never looked into teary eyes
and tried so desperatly
to hold back my own tears.

Before my sister had cancer -
I never hugged her tightly
just because it might be
the last time.
I never thought about making
friends and the next time I saw them was at their own funeral

Before my sister had cancer -
I never thought that today could
quite easily be your last day
and it never crossed my mind
that Every week 10 children in the
uk are told that they have got
a monster growing inside there bodies
called cancer

Before my sister had cancer -
I never had to listen her scream
when a needle was stuck into her flesh
And then having to put on a brave face
to reassure her that it was all ok.
when all i wanted to do
was scream out "have mercy"

Our lives were so different before cancer came into them !

Run ,Zack ,Run ! - Cross country x

Run Zack Run !!!! - Zack and his school has made it to the finals of the cross country at the bowl! Go on zack you can do it. At the semi-fnals Zack placed 65th out of 300 , it was raining so he slipped over on the mud at the start and sprained his ankle , But he kept on going and finished !! Zack is 8 and his category was 8-10 year olds - so well done zack you rock our little runner . Zack just can't stop his little legs from going - That boy has so much energy it's unbelievable - GO ZACK GO !!!!!

Run Zachary Run ! Zack at the Eden Project , cornwall

(our favourite place in the world!)

Zack at Alton Towers Zack at the Eden Project

Zachary in the Berry bash at alton towers ! Zack,Daisy and I At disneyland Paris

Zack in Paris Zachary on the EuroStar!!!

KEEP RUNNING ZACK , RUN , RUN , RUN !!!! lol xxx

Hi

Hello , So sorry i haven't updated for a very long time ! - but I have been very busy !!! - thought i'd let u know that Daisy is meant to (if everything goes to plan ) - Be finishing her treatment in january ! - How cool , lol x i will try to update more ! - Even though i dont think any1 follows this blog ! x

Mummy what did I do wrong ?

Earlier on today i was thinking of Mia - daisy's best friend who passed away ! I was angry about her being gone today , so to releave the pain i wrote a poem , and i thought i would share it with you here ! It is written as if it is mia speaking ., enjoy ...

Mummy what did i do wrong ?

Why mummy why ?

Why did the angels choose me,

I wish that my life was simple again,

Pain and cancer free.

I fight every day , without a minutes rest,

please tell me mummy why ?

Why do the angels hate me , when you say i am the best ?

I am in great pain , Unimaginable pain,

I cry every day,

I beg for forgiveness , what did I do wrong?

I wish that this torture would just end,

It feels like a mind game,

And I constantly have to be strong,

I am a good little girl , so ,

Mummy please make my pain stop !

Mummy why do they hate me ,

When you say my heart is pure gold?

My life is like a very thin frayed piece of thread,

Hanging there , Just waiting to snap,

This is something we all dread,

Mummy why me ,

What did i do wrong , what did i do to upset them ,

Mummy why do the angels hate me ?

Why did they humiliate me and make me bald?

I knew i would die ,

I was just waiting around,

And then it came,

That day in August when i became very sick,

The doctors said that they had no more treatments,

No more magic medicine ,

Nothing that would heal me and make me better again.

My mummy cried,

I tried to be strong,

I am only a small child,

Living through what seems like hell.

I did not fear death but ,

I knew that I would have to leave behind,

A life that was overspilling with love,

And all those people that meant the whole world to me,

But that i would soon spread my wings,

and fly just like a dove !

When I entered the gates of heaven,

It was only then that I realised,

That the angels dont hate me,

They love me so,

So much that they wanted me ,

To be with them right then.

They wanted a star,

That would make heaven bright,

One that would make heaven a beautiful place to be,

And this is why they choose me,

I am that star,

An angel with wings.

I watch over my mummy,

Who grieve's for me each night and day,

I do not like it and I have to turn away,

My little sister Gracie is growing up so fast,

I try to protect her from all harm and the Dreadfull past.

I try to help my beautiful Mummy,

The one I love so much,

By sending messages ,

Like the breeze in the wind,

Reminding her that I'm just a short breath away.

My name is Mia,

I am only three,

On the 31st of August,

The angels called for me.

By Amber Furniss

For Justine-Mia's mummy

In loving memory of our little shining star - Forever three - Taken from Neuroblastoma Stage 4

Find your wings Mia ....

Forever three

Forever free

Forever in our hearts ... Fly high Mia xxx

Mia and Gracie

Justine - Mia's mummy

Mia - Before diagnosis

Mia as a butterfly Mia in JR hospital

Scout Camp !!!

Hello my faithful followers !!! at the weekend i went to Scout Camp - We had lots of fun I Am really tired so i will give you the details later !!!